diary....been feeling pretty good about my practice and i think it is paying off...had like 3 good days in a row. Then i had some rough patches/days this past week and its hard to accept because i want to feel good so badly. Feels like i went backwards and i get so upset but i guess that is how it goes! Playing music with friends, making things out of clay, and being with others is where i feel the best. I don't enjoy being alone lately...but i have still been spending time alone and i can work on feeling more comfortable.

recording some techniques i am practicing to cope w anxiety and reduce depression to hold myself accountable and also in case it helps others

grounding

gratefulness mantra:

3x "I love and I am grateful for ~3 things big and small that already exist~"

3x "I love and I am grateful for ~3 things I want but phrase as if I already have them~"

3x "I love and I am grateful for ~3 things big and small that already exist~"

CBT / Reframing thoughts

Meditation (trying for atleast 5 min most days)

Exercise

Positive Affirmations

Velvet Box (putting my obsessive thoughts away somewhere they are comfortable- can choose when to open box and look at them)

Breathing

River (acknowledge thoughts and imagine placing them in river floating away)

Recording mood day and night